I lost my best friend in September 2014, I still remember the phone call asking to get myself to the hospital as quick as I could. Hoping it was just a nightmare. Thinking of all the what ifs, how did this happen, why her?
She was beautiful, had her life ahead of her! Hated alcohol, didn’t smoke, was healthy and had a perfect little family. I still question to this day how it happened, the only answer we received was natural causes. Here one second, taken too soon. It really does become apparent that the saying ‘ God takes only the best of angels’ may be true. she was truly just that.
Everyone in the town knew her, her bright and bubbly smile!
I still think about her everyday, talk to her at times and cry my eyes out knowing I will never be able to hug her again. Loosing someone is devastating, but loosing someone so close to you who is only young is even worst. I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone. Almost two years on and I am still trying to get over it, I never will get over it, I will just be able to cope with it. Cope with all the heartache. She left behind a beautiful little boy. His name is Max Albert David Conn. He is adorable, so like her. Full of smiles, mischief and laughter.
Her smile… it lit up the room, she hated her teeth but they were perfect.
Her hair… She had the nicest hair, always shiny!
Her eyes… they were beautiful.
I can’t even begin to explain the heart ache we felt as a family to loose our best friend, family member and angel. She was the best. She filled a room with joy and made the world a better place. She will truly be missed, but never forgotten.
I expect to hear her voice all the time, open her front door and expect to see her. It really is such a horrible thing loosing someone. The hardest part is not being able to say goodbye properly, telling her how much I loved her. How much I thought of her, even if she use to steal my clothes and shoes! this happened quite often, we all laugh at it now so much!
She really didn’t realise how beautiful or amazing she was. If I could see her again, I would just hold her tight, squeeze her, tell her I miss her. How much she meant to us all, she was the sister I never had, but I am more than thankful to of had her as my older cousin, even through all the wind ups and when she use to pinch my food!
I still have that empty feeling that will never quite go away. The thoughts running around my head, thinking she’ll show somewhere. Sometimes in life you have to prepare for these moments, This happened unexpectedly and suddenly. It’s a way of life. I couldn’t of gone through all of this if it wasn’t for my amazing family, they are certainly a big rock, but also my best friend Gabriella. She has been with me throughout the years of almost everything!
Truth behind it all, treasure your loved ones. Tell them how much you love them, keep them close and visit them often. There is nothing more than that you can simply do. Travel the world, do everything you can, because when your time is up, that’s it. I honestly think my cousin had a wonderful life, she didn’t care about what others thought, she brought up a beautiful little boy with her partner. She was crazy! but in a good way.
Sipping on Cider and listening to some incredible acts, ones I never even thought I would listen too or have heard of!
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